ABout About ABout ME :D
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Name: Fathimath Farha CP
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Occupation: Student (and
loving it) :D
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What I have to say: About Me: ......... in one word:
WEIRD :D
yesh, i'm very weird.........and proud of it!
am weird, i try to be funny and i love being the joker of the group. :D
but then, i can get really emotional, angry, i can hurt people and kill :D
i LOVE chocolate, chocolate icecream, chocolate milk shake, chocolate cakes, chocolate chocolate :D :D :D
and that's about me for now. :D :D
take care!
keep reading too ya?
happy belated national day singapore
Sunday, August 10, 2008, 9:55:00 PM
i actually forgot about national day. i only remembered it after reading rah's entries. i dread that the singaporean in me is finally saying goodbye. i mean, i actually forgot the most important day in a country that i lived in most of my life. i hate that. how could i? i feel so betrayed.
i was just sitting in the porch, an afternoon alone. and i was thinking about where and what my life was 365days back. i teared a little. just a year and my life completely changed. its just sad. so many losses yet i gained somethings as well. i cant find anyone to blame this change on and that makes it all the more worse. all the what ifs ring in my head, constantly reminding me of my failures, my stupidity and my thoughtlessness.
what if i had spent more time with my father, cherished him a lot more? then maybe he wouldnt have left. what if i never got angry with my father, what if i loved him like i loved the most loved, he couldnt have left. i miss him so much.
what if i did not fought or got angry with my friends, like really cherish them and showed them the importance if their presence in my life, maybe, i wouldnt have lost them.
ah damn, all these what ifs. i hate them. you can bet i'm tearing up now. but that's fate. so much changes. i just wish that time would stop for a while, or atleast slow down so that i can rest and actually catch up with my life. i just wish. another wish among many unfulfilled.
i have long stopped keeping track of the days. i realised i no longer want to because....because i do not want to see the days of my life being wasted away with no accomplishments, no happiness. that brings me to the question...what really is life???
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dad...if you're watching me right now, do know that i will always love you and cherish the love you always gave. i know its too late to return the love. if only i could turn back the time.
