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hey, i'm actually BACK :D

Monday, May 24, 2010, 8:39:00 PM

hey,

its been more than a year since my last update? like wahahaha! i'm soo good. i mean, its not like i don't try.....well, ok actually, i didn't try. but i'm reviving this little bloggy of mine. why? i don't know.....? sudden inspiration i guess?
or maybe cos i bought a diary and havent been using it properly and am feeling guilty about it yet cant be bothered enough to actually write and am more in a mood to type and hence, the blog? ( psst....did you get any of that? i wont blame you if you didnt cos i most probably didnt =D )

annnnyway,
honestly,
my life has changed alot! :D

i mean, for one thing, i'm no longer in the 10th :D ..... i'm not in the 12th. a computer science student.....most probably not going to pursue the whole engineering thingymajig cos i wont be able to. and i'm not THAT sad about that. i mean, i've never dreamt about becoming an engineer.....actually, i had no ambitious dreams and i dont think i have any now either. weird huh? all my friends (well, almost) have already decided where to take their lives and i'm stuck here, in the present.....looking back at the past sometimes but never ahead. sad huh? i think NOT :D
come what may.........i'll face them :D i can't promise i wont fall or cry or think about committing suicide but hey, let's face it.....none of us actually have our future in our hands. we can work damn hard at something but end up never succeeding :)

can you believe that? from my current situation to something philosophical like that? :D i seriously rule :D :D :D

what else?
hm, oh yeah. having my holidays now. well, not exactly. school started early this month but i havent been attending classes regularly (one of the consequences of not having a goal). but heck. i'll be going to school tomorrow.....not that i'm jumping excited about it =/ i dont want to goooooooooo :(

crap. whatever. i still have to go. heck. whatever. 'm going. :(

oh oh oh! i'm actually taking driving classes and teach says i'm pretty good already except that i cant stand the brakes. :D like seriously, i cant stand it. i never brake when i have to. i just love the speed :D and i cant stand the brakes. =/ i'll have to work hard and impress teach tmr....why? haha, so that she'll be satisfied enough with me to send me for the test. :D and then!! i'll get my license (yeah baby) and woohoo....i'm actually getting excited just THINKING about it! wahahaha :D :D :D

and yeah, that's about it for today. i'll try to be regular this year :P try try try :D

wish me luck :D

tookies!! :D

revived =D

Thursday, March 26, 2009, 10:21:00 PM

this post is to prove to Dah that my blog is not dead.
but then, even if my blog WAS dead, it only died naturally - of old age. Dah's blog died at birth so no comparing my bloggy with yours ok? haha

anyway, the only reason this blog almost died was because i had my Os. haha. i know its very late but today was my last paper. now, i'm free for like 3 whole freaking months! woot!!!

hmm, papers were ok ok la. i dont want to comment on it too much. let the results come. and oh, the results will be out on May 8th. wahaha. i can already hear the thunder booming. i'm guessing May 8th will be a rainy day. oh well.

what else? hmm.....nothing la. life's pretty boring and i've started writing a personnal diary. so yeah, bloggy's gonna die soo but i'll try to keep rejuvenating it once in a while.

oh, dah's blog should already be 6feet under.

hello, and see ya later!

Friday, February 20, 2009, 9:26:00 PM

whoa, its been a frigging long time since i actually blogged. why - you may ask. answer?
i've been busy. really busy. january was full of handing in assignments, projects and all the stupid c-stuff. and by the time we finished that, we had tests! so much tests that the compilation of these papers would create a mountain that will make Sir Everest jealous!

yesterday was the last paper of my prelims. haha. i'm still all the way back. but heck. so yeah, we've got like another 20-30 days before the real EXAM! ...........
i really should be studying now..............
oh bother.......!

so what had happened all that time? well, the more significant ones were ;
1) i won Rs.3000 for winning a district level poetry-writing competition.
2) i had my birthday where i got to eat 12 bars of yummy yum yum chocolates!!
3) i found a pet cat. he's black and always hungry. he stays outside my kitchen and mews, i throw him the fish off my plate. its a healthy relationship!
4) i saw snakes on 3 different occasions. but so far, i've only see the tail part! oh well, i'm not complaining
5) i almost caused the death of my bus-station-walkee friend by putting her right in front of incoming buses! wahaha!
6) i ceased remembering. but i do remember that i love CHOCOLATE! yay!

so yeah thats about it. i just got on to say that hopefuly i will be MIA on the net till March26. i sooooo have to get studying. so yeah! byebye! take care. and see you soon dear bloggy, hopefully with good news! wish me luck!

Quizzy!

Saturday, December 20, 2008, 10:07:00 PM

alright. was tagged by Daud to do a quiz. and i did. heh. here it comes;

REGULATIONS of this quiz is:
-People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by them.
-Tag 5 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.
-These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
-Continue this game by sending it to other people.
Tagged by: Daud

If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
1. I’ll wish for world peace! Heh! So cliché. But I really don’t think the world can achieve it on its own. It would need supernatural powerful magic like wishes! So yay!
2. 2nd wish would be for me to achieve ALL my dreams. Even if it means getting rid of all the annoying and scary stray dogs in my neighbourhood.
3. 3rd wish would be for me to get another 3 wishes. =D

Did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you're really real?
erm….no? hello? I’m as real as I can get. I am certainly not a dream or an illusion. I’m as real as the pain I feel when I pinch my hand *ouch*. And maybe my dreams and hopes are not real and never seems to connect with reality but like I said, they’re dreams and not reality. But heck, I’m as real as that stupid dog barking outside my house.

Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
To me, what lies ahead of me is death. Duh! Its waiting right there for everyone. And so, there are people who walk around dead thinking that they don’t have to do anything because they’re gonna die and then there are people who want to enjoy and make use of the blessing that came in the form of LIFE to its fullest extent. I really am hoping that I belong to the latter group.

Would you change yourself for the person you love?
if Ihad to change myself, then he might as well go love someone else. If you love, then love the person for who she/he is and not for what you can change him/her into. You want your love to be a supermodel, go love a supermodel, if you want your love to be George Bush, go after George Bush and leave the poor soul alone. Heh. That’s my belief. And by the way, who wants to love that irritating dog who is apparently in love with my house? And oh, though its against my belief, change it into whatever you want to. Really!

Do you believe in Love?
Yes. It was love that brought me into this world and it was love who shaped my life. It was love who kept me strong and brave enough to withstand my troubles and it is Love that still keeps me alive.

How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
As long as he wants me to wait. And if rejected, well, lets be practical, I’ll move on.

Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
That stupid dog has been the death of me for the past few MONTHS!!

Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?
I don’t think I found Mr.Right yet. And I don’t recall keeping a Butterfly Farm in my stomach.

Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
heh! Yes! It was god awful. Imagine trying to study!! And there is one thing I’ll like to get out of my head AND my life – that stupid dog!!

Who are currently most important people to you?
Everyone I’ve met and anyone who’ve made an impact in my life, even if I’ve never met them before.

Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
Alright, I’ll be honest…..Yes! but it was more of a wouldn’t than a couldn’t.

Are you happy with your life?
YupYup. I’m ready to live my life to the fullest and I’m not gonna let anyone or any stupid dog from making me do that.

Would you give your all in a relationship?
A relationship can only be made into a powerful bond if both parties work very hard on it together. And so, yes, I would work very hard in a relationship, any relationship. There’s no love forever if you do nothing about it.

If you were to go on Mars to meet some friendly Martians, what would you bring along as a gift?
I would bring with me a lot of DiaryMilk chocolate!! They’ll surely love us for that and business will boom for my most favourite company in the world! And if they’re allergic to chocolate then I wont even want to get acquainted....cos' what's the use??

Do you often wish there was something you could change?
Yes, wishing would never help unless I was in the scenario of the first question. But in reality, there’s only wishing to turn back time. There is somehow no way you can change the past. Maybe you can manipulate the future to make yourself forget the past but the pasts I’m talking about, well, they’re irreversible and somehow, will never be forgotten.

What will you look at first when you first set eye on a girl/guy?
haha! Weird question, rather personal even. I’ll skip this little question. Unless of course it doesn’t talk about physical stuff. If its not physical, then well, personality, the behavior, the reactions and the aura emitted from him. =P (????)

If your lover betrayed you, what will be your reaction?
I’ll be stunned, shocked, feel betrayed, sad, I’ll cry and when all the intensity of drama fades, I’ll move on.

END!! now, whoever gets tagged MUST do this quizzy!!

New Skin!

Thursday, December 11, 2008, 10:17:00 PM

yay! finally *phew*. NEW SKIN!!!

comments comments? is it cute or what?? hehe. i'm acting as though i actually created the skin but alas! i did not because i do not have the able hands and mind and intelligence to do so. oh well.

hey! look at what i can do!

yeah well, i've been learning HTML as part of my IT as a subject. i'm actually gonna be tested on IT. woohoo! right.

so what else? well, nothing much really. i only go back to school Monday. its been a frigging cool week of freedom so far and i loved every second of it. and Hari Raya rocked my black socks too. yay! we sacrificed a huge white bull this year. oh, there was one year when my mum and dad went to perform Hajj and i was left in India. well, at that time, i looked after a black bull le! i actually got stroke it, feed it, talk to it and i named it! He was the first bull to be named!! wahaha! and the glorious historical name was - Pinggu. haha! how was i to know that no bull sacrificed ever had a name? oh, there's a pic of him too.

aah! i think he was absolutely adorable! i loved him! he was my first PET that lived soo long! almost one month you know! hehe. but the special bond ceased to exist when the day of sacrifice came. i refused to go near the area where he was to be sacrificed but my really really mean cousin took pics and video of the WHOLE process!! and, well, i was really sad. but i have to admit la, he was one of the most special friends i had. i told him all my problems and everything. i patted him, i brushed him, i fed him every morning before i eat breakfast!! and i used to steal away bananas and watermelon from the kitchen just to feed him. heh! my aunts always scold me for doing that but hello, who can live on hay all month?? everyone needs a variety!! so yeah. i was really close to him. he was the first bull i touched le! and, here's what he was reduced to ....
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so sad!! i still feel sick when i think about it. i refused to eat the meat that came from him! how can i?? *sniff sniff*

i think i better go off now. i'm not crying, i just have dust in my eyes!!

and the day is whiled away yet again....

Thursday, November 27, 2008, 10:01:00 PM

today. i. went. to. school.

that was probably the most eventful part of my day today. argh! i just need some excitement. really. but where am i supposed to go? *sigh*

have you met Minha?

aah! i think she's just the most darling little thing i've ever met. she just soooo cute...! too bad she is shirtless in this pic. hai! baby's are like FRIGGING cute. she has gone off to live somewhere else right now. she was supposed to be back today but i guess her mom and dad arent ready to come back. they are sooo selfish!

hm. what else? oh, i quarreled with Xana (ksE-Na) today. wasnt the first time but i assume that this would mark our 154th 'break-up'. and its all HER fault! she was writing little notes to me in class. sweet quotes and all that. i decided to write her back one....i wrote:

"my heart burns with much endearing pain when i see the touch of smile on your face..."

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so sweet right? i still dont get why she got mad....... *walks off thinking...*

life's getting a little TOO busy...

Tuesday, November 11, 2008, 11:58:00 AM

hey guys.
i have just came upon a great realisation that i'm biting off more than i can chew. why? i've just involved myself in almost every programme that my school is coming up with. well, maybe not all but heck, i'm actually a LOT more involved in this school than the combination of ALL the schools i've studied in.... i've made 2 speeches in school, i'm being the representative of my school in 3 various competitions and every teacher now comes to me to see if i'm interested in taking part in whatever thing they have.
what does this mean? i feel that maybe i'm trying to run away from something, run away, hide from it all. i'm busying myself up to my neck, over my head, so much that i hardly have time for myself.... practices, meetings with teachers, briefing, damn, i hate it. and recently, the thing i had been trying to run away from came back to me, in the form of a dream. and now, i'm sad again, i keep having these flashes of memories. its not fair. but hell, what is?
anyway, enough of that. i'm trying hard to keep really connected with my friends back there in SG! yay! i miss you guys! heh. RAH, DAH, MEL, ASV, CY, CLARIBEL, SHAH, ELSIE, even Daud, Daniel, Varun....etc and now, i may be able to keep in touch more because they have already gone through one of the toughest phase in their lives - the Big O! woohoo! hurray for you guys! congrats!
yeah, i guess i'll stop here for now. =D bye!